Cycle

Don't disappoint me,
I want to hold you far above
Show me your weakness,
I cannot justify that love
or rather adoration
that overburdens me inside,
that fights my better judgment
I feel so alive

Don't disappoint me
or stop that game inside my head
Tear down the barriers
to the layers of skin we've shed
Barriers secure me,
I protect them with my silence,
and it's so harmless
I cling to that secure sense

I want is so badly,
an acceptance that I never feel
I stumble for a word
to make this all have some appeal
So it all breaks down,
and it falls way beyond your help
I end up hating you
because I hate myself

MM 1993