Livid Step

Everything is a reminder,

a flickering candle, a photograph

of a light that would reside,

that would call out to you

In light, in darkness too, a reminder

It eroded, it dwindled

into the deepest depths of a spirit

One day you will know

Oh child, be patient

There’s something waiting for the clutch of your hand,

your heart too

Darkness can’t reside,

it just can’t live here anymore

It’s something to let go of

Flush the spirit, cleanse it

There are reasons for this, oh child

Be patient and realize it

MM 1994

Without A Day

Somehow your first taste of blood

is an initiation. A cold hard truth

you live with

You nor I will ever forget

how momentous it felt to step over,

to only fall

I know all too well

how far I’ve fallen, how deep I’ve swam,

because I’m drowning

You know all too well

because your heart is lifeblood,

saving me

I hope this is redemption,

or something close, because

this is all I have to offer

Everything that’s said, the glances met,

every solitary moment,

means the world

MM 1993

Hemlock

I like to think I'm harmless,
I've got a thing about it
I cherish the innocence
and live volatile
Take from it what I need,
build monuments for it,
and think it harmless to hurt everyone

I like to think I'm helpless
when acting out self-pity
and summing up the story
and falling at your feet
I hope that I'm still hopeful
when writing love letters
that make you forget
everything I've done

I've got a lock on time
to break and to bruise
I've got a lock on time,
I've earned a right of passage

MM 1994

20 x 5

Twenty times five is the age I feel
sometimes when I am tired,
when I'm reflecting on the past
and I can't believe it
That I have pulled through,
and how time can mess with you,
can give you the worst of everything
and take it all right back

And here I am
for a minute stuck in that time
subtracting years off my life,
reflecting on a lie
And time doesn't let you forget,
it can reach back just to show you,
to remind you that it owns you
It savors its control

And time yields all its pain
because it is the truth
And all good things come in due time...

MM 1994

I Was Bitter

Asked why I was bitter
I replied 'just look around'
Asked if you were better,
you left without a sound
We agreed to understand,
to put it all behind,
and to open up our eyes
to attempt to find

Just one answer in the nick of time
Just one reason why

Asked what I were thinking,
I wanted to explode
Asked me my opinion
and I wanted to let go
Leave this ugly place behind
and drop off of the earth
Try to forget it all for once
and go through some rebirth

MM 1993

Dragonfly

You are just like and effervescent light
You are just like my reason why
Light the sky just like a dragonfly
You are a part of me

I see you overcome the obstacles
Downplay all the struggles
You are just like a butterfly
Trying to break free

You are a part of me
There is no barrier in the world
It works so beautifully
It is mine and it is yours

You are a shining glimpse of my love
You are the world that I'm afraid of
You are the all or nothing
You are a part of me

This is our defining moment
For myself it is infinite
That will be forever yours
It will always be

MM 1993

Good Riddance

There's not a damn doubt
inside my tired mind
about that mortal chance
of running out of time
The time is for telling,
I spell it with my blood
It's more than a message
of my guilt-ridden love

It is something more
It is a part of me

There's not a damn doubt
in my clouded sight
that I am just your villain,
it is a shrouded plight
The time is unforgiving
and is so short with me
It's more than a confession,
it's trying to break free

MM 1993